Todays Vlog followed by some rather exciting links!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Giveaway click HERE
Amazon.co.uk Print version
Amazon.com Print Version
I haven’t done an actual Award post for a while but this one dropped in my comments last week and I decided you know what lets go for it so…
I mean it has a dragon so how could I resist!
Here are the rules:
So first things first a huge thank you to Ravyn Whyt at Random Acts of Writing you can check out her lists here and learn more about her and the others she nominated.
Now 7 things about me that you don’t already know, well instead I decided to tell you seven thing I have learnt about myself through the self publishing process…
1) I could have a degree in procrastination, the closer I got to finishing the harder I found it to actually focus on the task at had.
2) Despite my bravado I have very little confidence when it comes to my own abilities and am actually now bracing myself for a stream of negative comments once people read my stories.
3) I realise the last one is irrelevant because I do not believe anyone will actually read my stories unless they know me and are trying to make me feel better.
4) I am becoming convinced I should go into PR rather than writing because I am pretty sure I can plan an awesome book launch if I put my mind to it but not as sure about producing the book itself.
5) Over the last twenty plus years I have suffered depression on and off, basically ever since post natal depression following my daughters birth, I am very good at recognising the signs of its approach and taking evasive action. I know compared to the black dogs that stalk others mine is generally more like the andrex puppy version but every now and again it grows fangs and turns into a huge hound, my grandmas death and the end of my relationship triggered that response. I know I hid it well and only a few people very close to me would have known the signs but while in its grip I found writing almost impossible, especially Voices with its obvious themes of death and afterlife, writing Disintegration became my therapy, and while I wanted it to be longer than it is, I had to accept some of my work in it was just not good enough. (Don’t worry the demons are back to chasing rolls of toilet tissue once more)
6) I have found an extra strength in admitting my failings to myself and accepting them and where previously it would have defeated me I have now learnt that because I cannot do something today does not mean I cannot do anything today and that I will not be able to do whatever I set my mind to tomorrow.
7) I make the mistake of looking at other people projects that diminish my confidence further simply because they are so awesome for example, this trailer is for my FB friend Claire’s latest project, it has absolutely nothing in common with my own stuff but I find my self thinking I will never manage anything this awesome
Now who to pass this to? Rubs hands together, lets see who has been quiet for a while…
4) Actually you!!!! If you are reading this and have a blog then you have also been nominated, after all the fact you are reading this proves your loyalty 😀
I haven’t really watched much TV this week which will account for the film section of this weeks selection being missing but I think you will either love my other two picks or be ringing for the straight jacket for me so on we go…
This was shown a couple of weeks ago but I recorded it and only just got round to watching it…
I find programmes like this fascinating because it raises a really interesting dilemma, how long before the sacred becomes purely archaeology? We think of graveyards as sacred spaces, places we lay our loved ones to rest believing they will be left there but with ever growing populations of both the living and the dead more and more we see and hear of graveyards being renovated. In a recent conversation in a Facebook group I am part of between a few other people it was mentioned that they had been approached with the request to add new burials to old family graves, not their own families but to add a stranger in the same space as long gone ancestors.
And in cases like this programme the long dead are removed for re-interment at another location to allow for the expansion of the living, for progress but should they have had the right to rest their for eternity? I am unsure in my own feelings about these things, part of me says if respectfully done then what is the harm but the other says we how long before there are still living relatives that might be affected? I have done parts of my family tree and have parts that reach back to the 1500’s, how would I feel if one day I set off to find their last resting place and instead found a car park? It is also an issue with us living longer now that the time periods discussed in this may very well be covered by only a few generations, as you know my grandma passed away this year age 90 but she frequently talked of her own grandmother who was born in 1866, now while this may seem a distant memory she is not. My grandma shared her stories, her photo is in an album under my desk (it is too precious to me to risk exposing it to sunlight) my grandma’s younger brother remembers her though his memories are vague, so will we reach a point where we have to actually sign a contract for the length of time a grave is protected for? More questions than answers and I really am not sure how we deal with this but it is certainly something that will be harder to ignore as time passes.
Ahhh, those crazy Victorians but I have to confess to a fascination with not only rituals but also this channel…
I have always been fascinated by the rituals that go along side burials, be it the contents of a pyramid buried along side a Pharaoh or the Victorian trend for Memento Mori photography, and the hair jewellery and growing trend for jewellery made from ashes is something that is intriguing. As cremation becomes a more practical solution for many it then does raise the issue of what to do with the ashes, this past weekend my mum, daughter and one of my sister went to spread my grandmas ashes but for other families they want a place they can go to or do they maybe they all want a pendant or a ring…
Or maybe a keyring and I actually like the options with this because there are all those funeral flowers, but actually I think maybe the drying and powdering of flowers might be a nice way to remember a wedding rather than a death…
I think at some point probably because of the horrors of the two World Wars our relationship with natural death became changed, we became far more judgemental about how people deal with grief and seem to expect people to deal with it and get over it within months regardless of the relationship with the deceased. I have heard of grieving parents who had to quit jobs to nurse ill children been given notice six weeks after their child’s death that they need to be going back out to work now. I know people who will not talk about death as if that will stop it eve happening to anyone they know.
As the saying goes there are only to things in life that are guaranteed death and taxes, I do think that things like these examples of jewellery are a good way to start dialogue and maybe when people talk more about death and the realities of loss then life might just start to be treated with more respect again.
Well launch day is creeping up and I have of course made a few errors along the way (you will hear about those on Wednesday stay tuned). Overall I am feeling more excited than scared today but it is still early and that could change.
If you have been living under a rock this last couple of weeks you might wonder what I am waffling about well it is this…
This book thing I wrote. Well adapted, most of the pieces started life as 500 word flash fictions and have been reworked, reworded and renovated to bring you a collection of short stories that you can read on the bus, in you lunch break, in fact if you are a quick reader you might even get through the whole book in your lunch hour if you skip the lunch part. And I promise you, you can actually read it on the bus there are no embarrassing bits, well there is one nipple but that is all, and also there are no bits that are going to make you cry, though I cannot promise you might not giggle.
So why should you buy this book when there are so many out there I hear you say? Well firstly one can never have too many books and any hidden on a Kindle really don’t count anyway. Secondly because if you are hear and enjoying reading this there is a really good chance you will enjoy my writing, therefore it a bonus for both of us. And thirdly, it is cheap, well compared to a Roll Royce or a ticket to New York and that means it is worth taking a chance you will enjoy it.
If you have been convinced by now to take a chance on a
lunatic very nervous first time self publishing author then these as the link things…
And if you get it and read it then please let me know what you think, you can find me lurking just about everywhere on Social Media, if you love it leaving a review on Amazon or Goodreads is always nice thing to do for an author, if you didn’t like it and have constructive criticism I will hear that as well, though I may stick my fingers in my ears and go LALALALALa at the same time 😀
It has been an eventful week and for me today is a painful one as it would have been my grandma’s birthday, it is the first since her passing which makes it all the harder, but I know that she would want me to focus on the positive not dwell on the upset so…
Click for the giveaway!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Available for pre-order – Disintegration & Other Stories.
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Well it is done, shorter than I would have like as at the last minute I pulled a couple of stories I was not happy with but I decided it was more important to actually take the plunge with the publishing process than to create a doorstep of a book. The kindle version is listed as 59 pages while the print version will run at just under a hundred, I am hoping that the stories will endear themselves to people and they will like my style and want to read more but that is where the sickness comes in.
What if no one likes it? What if the intertrolls decide to give it their special treatment? I have seen so many horrible comments on friends reviews pages, comments they do not deserve, that I cannot help but wonder how I will handle them. I know there will be some, I don’t think anyone ever really escapes unscathed these days but I know the minute I sent that final draft and could no longer go back that I found myself almost in tears with nerves.
I like to think of myself as a fairly strong person, but my absence the last few days has been basically because I realised my procrastination at finishing a project comes down to fear. It was not a pleasant realisation to make, at one point I even tried to change the release day but if I had I would have lost my pre-order privileges (though I would point out I wanted to change the day from the Saturday to the Monday because I am actually at work when my book goes on sales, I picked the date randomly without looking what day it was, lesson learned).
The actually process was not too hard, mainly thanks to a wonderful article I found on Lit World Interiews you can find by clicking on their name. I know how to format a document in the old fashioned sense of indents titles etc, but like many I should imagine of my age who learnt typing on first manual and the electronic typewriters, I never really use many of the other format features of word and had certainly no idea about doing a Table of Contents from the document, the article was a blessing for me especially as it seems it is a feature Kindle require more frequently these days and was certainly a positive leaning process to take forward to Voices.
The Create Space experience was a little more difficult and require a few adjustments to get it all set up properly, the addition of blank pages, a little alteration to the cover to get it to fit though it seems that had I done it the other way round that might not have been an issue. I have however been convinced of the need to think about covers for both formats before next time and that is something I need to look into. I have just submitted the files after the last adjustments so hopefully I will soon be looking at a proof and it should be ready to go on sale at the same time as the Kindle version. I am going to be using the hashtag #PaulaDisintegration for this book as I looked on twitter and it was the only way to do it that would not end up taking you somewhere else lol
This weeks vlog apologies for my drowsiness in the last clip was still half asleep…