I have added a new page to the blog today specifically to share my journey towards a leaner healthier me. I have been putting off this post all day but if I intend to stick to daily blogging I cannot procrastinate any longer.
You see I knew when I climbed on the scales it would be depressing, I even pretty much knew how depressing but it is one thing to be depressed in the privacy of your own home and another to share you shame on the internet.
I am not going to put my start weight here, it is on my Road to Health page for any who really want to know and maybe once those number come down I won’t feel as bad about it.
It would be easy to lie, none of you were in the kitchen this morning (scales work more accurately on a hard floor) I could have knocked a little off and pretended that it was not as bad as it is. But eventually you would notice that the figures didn’t add up and to be honest I just don’t do lying.
So instead I have taken a deep breathe and prepared…for what? I know the people who come here and read my blog are always supportive, while others have suffered from trolls it is an issue I have never had here. Maybe I am worried if you see those numbers you will think less of me but I know that not true either. I think the truth is that by putting it in black and white I have to go through with it, I have to prove to myself I can shift this weight, I can get through the pain barrier of exercise, I can get back to being the person I was before my back op. But in truth I am also scared, scared that I might discover I cannot get back to that person, scared the physical limitations will still be there no matter how much weight I lose.
The future can be scary but some things are worth facing your fears for, watch this space…it could get interesting!!!